1st Ramadhan & Syawal without....

Alhamdulillah, I'm happy to finally able to meet Ramadhan again this year, Allah blessed me :')
But this time I've to say that I'm happy nd also sad at the same time. My dearest father passed away on 28th Mac 2013 nd this Ramadhan would be the 1st Ramadhan without him. Usually he wake me up for sahur. Usually he was sitting in front of me on the dining table having our sahur together. Usually we will pray together. I miss to hear his voice. Laugh at me, mad at me, having discussion over matters. Can you feel what I feel right now? 

Now, he is with Him, he is in a better place now.
I miss when he called me 'Abang'. Forgive me if I couldn't hold my tears. Forgive me if I haven't been able to make you happy, pa. Forgive me if I can't be a good son for you. But I promise you, pa. I'll take a good care of mama nd my siblings. I won't cry in front of them. I won't.


Even you're no longer here in physical being but I know you'll always be around. I know you're here with me, in my heart. Alhamdulillah, I've a chance to have a father like him nd thank you dad for being a awesome dad for me.

Well, Syawal is coming soon nd tomorrow I will go back to Gombak for Eid. This year always brings a lot of memories. Soon, I will celebrate Eid for the first time without my dad. At this time, my state of mind is not in the world map. Ahaa. I don't know maaaan, it's so hard to tell. I wrote a letter to my late father when I missed him too much. Moving on doesn't mean I forget him right? I'm moving forward bringing him along in my heart.

Al-fatihah...

Happy Father's Day <3
Pa, you're my hero. You're my everything.

Even papa dah pergi tinggalkan kitorang, papa tetap dalam hati kitorang sampai bila bila. Pa, abang selalu rindukan papa. Apatah lagi mama ngan adik adik yang lain. Pa, abang janji akan jaga keluarga kita :')

Abang dapat masuk matrik pa :'D Abang terkilan sikit sebab papa takda masa nak hantarkan abang pergi matrik :')

Abang jauh sekarang dari keluarga kita, kesian mama sorang sorang kena jaga adik adik. Abang pun dah rasa homesick ni pa haha. Rindu nak peluk/cium adik adik ngan mama sekali nd rindu nak ziarah papa..

InsyaAllah bulan puasa nanti baru abang balik sana. Abang selalu doakan kesejahteraan papa dekat sana. Terima kasih untuk semuanya, pa.

You're the best dad in the world pa, Iloveyou. Al-Fatihah...

Assalamualaikum,

Praises to Allah, He gave me courage to write and to share.
Forgive me if I'm wrong, forgive me if I caused you any misunderstanding.
A sinner. Yes I am.

To you I shall say, being a bird that fly away. Being a bird wihout a home. You'll find freedom but you'll never find happiness. A everlasting peace. A everlasting happiness. I'm going to start a new life in KOLEJ MATRIKULASI PULAU PINANG. Actually I didn't even thought about going to do matriculation, well you know, environmental influence maybe. So, I'm officially register myself on 27th May 2013.

Sekarang dah 7 hari dekat sini. Aku bersyukur sangat, alhamdulillah dapat masuk KMPP aka Kolej Matrikulasi Paling Popular heheh. Dah cukup baik kot aku dapat bilik paling dekat dengan semua tempat. Cafe dia terbaik, especially Cafe B. Agak lah sedap hari hari ada macam macam. Ada laksa, char kuewtiow, nasi ayam, nasi berlauk. Perghh, memang dapat menggemukkan aku kat sini.

Kawan. Awal awal ni, paling rapat dengan roommates jelah. Nak ramai, tunggu 1st day kuliah pagi nanti, dapat lah ramai even mungkin semua muka toya, nerd etc hahaha redha. Awek cun? hm hati tak terbuka lagi kbai

Kalau dulu, aku selalu cakap aku nd kau je. Sekarang aku cakap hang, hangpa, kami, teruihh, pi. Automatik, dialek tukar haha. Nervous doh pagi nanti 1st day. Lec gawang tak? Lec sportim tak? lol. Buku, pen 2 batang, highlight warna kuning dah ready dalam beg. Tak sabaq.

Rindu mama, adik adik, arwah papa, dear awak, ex buah hati [tetiba], kucing, katil, nd semua lah. Homesick. Tunggu ye, nanti abang balik ^^ Risau, mengenangkan adik adik yang nakal kat rumah tu. Sedih pulak ni.

Semoga Allah permudahkan segala urusan, aminn.
Dah lewat, jom tidur? Night, wasalam xx

Dream.

Today I woke up so late.
I dreamt of him.
I was so happy in my dream.
But I don't like it.
Because as soon as I wake up, he's not there.
And my heart hurts. really.
Why you leave us so fast?

Pa, did you miss me as much as I miss you?
*cry*

I'm back.

First of all, I'd would like to say a very much thank nd syukur Alhamdulillah to Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful, for let me pass my SPM examination with fying colours. Syukur. Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah. Memang aku tak jangka dapat keputusan macam tu. Tak sia sia usaha aku selama ni. Betul,nak berjaya bukan satu perkara yang mudah. Sangat berbaloi. Anyway, thank you to all my teachers that never feel give up when teach this stubborn student haha. Nd Ma, Pa, thank you so much sebab doakan kejayaan abang. Pagi tu aku lah yang paling super-nervous sebelum ambil result. Selain parents yang bagi semangat dari malam sampai lah pagi tu, orang yang aku sayang yang sekarang bukan milik aku lagi pun bagi semangat jugak.

Alala, it's okay to be scared but it's not okay to feel confident when taking the result. .itu hasil usaha 2 tahun ni kan. .so cuma kena tawakal+reda je :)

No matter what result you'll get, don't give up on your future okay sayang? Takda orang berjaya yg tak pernah gagal :) banyakkan selawat,takecare,gtg,salam. . 

*Tears flow* Eh sorry, rasa sebak jap. Saat ambil result, macam nak peluk semua kawan kawan aku kat situ. Gembira tak terkata. Betapa murahnya rezeki aku waktu tu. Walaupun ada satu huruf ganjil dalam slip tu tapi aku tetap bersyukur. Did you know that before SPM, I have never passed my Addmath test? haha k. Mama menangis bila dia tahu result aku. Papa happy but sempat serius : "A lagi satu mana hilang?" haha. Malam tu jugak, aku kehilangan orang yang aku sayang. My special girlfriend, my special friend, my special buddy, my special busyuk, my special baby boo, my special cupcake. After 1 year 8 months, I lost her because of my fault. Aku rindu kan dia. Sayang, sayang tak rindukan Adam? sikit pun tak? :') We're stranger. Dia dah tak benarkan aku ganggu hidup dia lagi. 1 text tu aku dah delete sebab tak sanggup nak baca banyak kali bila buka inbox. Yes, sejak 30Mac sampai harini, text terakhir dari dia aku masih simpan walaupun text tu bukan untuk aku. Sejak dia dah tak benarkan aku kacau hidup dia, aku tak sanggup nak dengar voice record kitorang dulu. Tak sanggup. Apatah lagi nak delete. Tulah satu satu kenangan yang ada pada aku. Awak, izinkan saya simpan voice record kita? simpan gelak dan tawa awak dalam hp saya? :') Saya tahu awak sedang berusaha lupakan saya tapi kan saya tak boleh, maaf. Aku kuat, aku dah boleh tahan dari keluarkan airmata. Jujur, saya masih sayangkan awak walaupun awak sebaliknya kan? :') Terima kasih untuk semuanya awak... kadang kadang Setiap hari saya mengharapkan satu text dari awak 'Good morning awak, have a nice day okay? :)' Tapi mustahil kan... Terima kasih buatkan favicon "Superman" nd cursor nama Adam ^^,

Family, Awak, Kawan. Orang orang yang buat aku berjaya dalam SPM. Terima kasih sangat sangat.

salam rindu,

adam...

Ini Jantung Hati saya. Berani ambik, aku campak kau dalam lombong.
Iloveyou,sayang :')

SPM is getting closer !

I guess most of you are excited  as I am because the end of the year is getting closer. SPM is getting closer too. I'm very nervous, afraid. *pengsan* Not only afraid of the exam but also the results and my future. Life after SPM is not going to be easy. Which path am I going to? The pressure will be mounting higher as well nd come to think of it I'm turning 18 in another 70 days. Oh yes, I do count down my birthday and I'm desperate. 

DESPERATE TO LEAVE SCHOOL.
Hypothesis for me ; Semakin dekat nak SPM, semakin aku jadi malas nak buka buku. Acano nak jadi peguam? Tapi tak bermakna aku tak study langsung. Addmath, harapanku padamu, soalan jangan nak susah sangat boleh kan? Kalau susah, boleh muntah pelangi aku nanti dalam dewan tu. Persediaan untuk Addmath tu rasanya boleh bantu aku dapat A+, insyaAllah. So, I will just let you know how we can make the best preparation for our upcoming Addmath/Mathematics paper :)

1. Go through all the list of formulas. Write them down on a piece of paper. Try your best to memorise ALL, if possible. If you are uncertain, please check the formula.
2. Do past year questions repeatedly. If you don't know the answer, just flip to the back nd check how to do the working. Psttt, there is no problem to checking the answer if you really cannot do it instead of wasting time trying to figure it out BUT after looking at the answer,try to attempt again.
3. Do as many questions as possible until you feel confident. If you don't know how to solve it, try asking someone.
4. Relax when you answer the questions.
5. Don't be over confident when a question is easy, double check your working.

Ehem, hey, you will naturally memorise the formula when you do it many times but if we really don't have time to study all topics now at the last minute, focus on the most easiest to score like emm quadratic equation, simultaneous equation, coordinate geometry, trigonometric functions nd vectors. So we can do the question, now! HAHA

I hope I can do the best during the exam. Pray for me. Yeahhh 10A+ ! I believe I can achieve what I've dreamed before !
GOOD LUCK SPM SITTERS, we're getting closer to being freeeeeeeee !

Special Note

I've been with her for almost 1 year 3 months and I admit we went through many challenges. But believe me, none of them could stop me from loving her or make one of us walk away and move on. NONE. I'm doing good with my studies. I'm happy with my current life, and I'm living it. you know how much I love you, my girl. You know how much I care about you.I really love you. I know myself and I know how far I can go for someone I love.You are special and weird, and it makes you special in my eyes. I know it might be the trillion times, but you are super cute when you smile, sulk at me, when you give me that "poyo" face, when you laugh, even when the tears fall from your eyes. You are hardworking sometimes but you have to know where to put the hardworking word when it comes to our life. Not just in career but in studies and how we take care our siblings and parents's heart. You are caring, no doubt. Sometimes you listen to me and never disobey me everytime I ask you to do something even though how lazy you are on that time :p , you never say no to what I want. That shows how you do really care and love me actually. I'm seriously serious. Life always fair but we make it unfair, so honey. Let's plan and change our life to a better life. And see how is it going if we walk in the right track.InsyaAllah, we will make it.

Much Love,

Applepie

Sick.

Bangun pagi tadi dengan langkah yang berat. Kepala sakit. Perut sakit. Makan pun tak ada selera. Banyak buat fake smile,fake laugh. duhh what happened to me? Alhamdulillah tak ada hw,nak study for sure tak ada mood langsung,nak buat apa je dari petang sampai malam. Kosong. *teringat najwa latif*

Continously.

It's been ages without writing a post. Suprisingly, I have strong desire to write again. I'm grateful for all the suffering I have gone through since it made me appreciate everything so much more. Things maybe different now but while I'm busy going through the new chapter life, I'm still looking back to the previous chapters and it brought me into tears without realizing it. Ugh, I need a hug right now.

Holiday??

Don't ask me what's going on now because you know that school will be reopened in the next few days nd I'm not ready at all,, I mean not because I haven't buy my school stuff but ... you know I'm still in my holiday mood nd it's really hard to let it go. I need more holidays. Extra,extra nd extra holidays. Arghh ! it's feels like school holiday just started yesterday doesn't it?? Time is running way too fast!! I'm trying not to think about it right now but the more I try to forget, the more it keeps running in my head. naaah how I can control myself? Do you think I'm paranoid? Duh .. I don't wanna ruin my mood today because of this ..

Aku B O S A N

H A I
pagi pagi lagi aku dah celik mata sebab ..

MAMA : abang,bangun ! dah pagi,jaga adik adik tu,mama nak pergi kerja dah .

AKU : haa? alaa maaa,awal lagi ni,,kejap ehh,5 minit 5 minit *menguap*

MAMA : takde 5 minit 5 minit ..

AKU : *pejam mata*

MAMA : ABANG ! *tepuk lengan aku*

AKU : haa,ye maaaa :O

MAMA : nanti mandikan ayil,dia dah bangun tadi,,

AKU : haaa baik bos ~

MAMA : bos,bos jugak . Bangun !

AKU : haa ye laaaaaah *turun katil,pergi bilik air*

seriously,mengantuk gila sekarang ni even tengah syok menaip --' malam tadi nak dekat pukul 3pg baru tidur. Kenapa aku tidur lambat? aku dating HAHA. Actually pergi bilik air tadi tu cuci muka nd gosok gigi je bukan mandi pun hahaha. Aku tukar seluar terus keluar pergi beli nasi lemak,dah balik baru aku mandi then makan. Lepas membuncitkan perut terus layan lappy. Text ngan awek pun sekejap je sebab dia pergi jalan jalan tak bawa aku sekali -.- haha,,nasib baik ada lappy kesayangan aku ni. haa nak tengok ke lappy aku? teruja lettew kan :D

TARAAAAAAAAAAAA !! limited edition punya,kau ada? HAHA

kay,tu je KBAI ...

Novel ??

Novel ? best sangat ke baca novel ? seminggu dua ni pun kecoh pasal filem 'Ombak Rindu' yang diadaptasi dari novel ombak rindu eh? aku pun tak berapa tahu sangat,aku dengar orang cakap je,,btw perempuan yang tengok,kebanyakkannya 'tewas' . alaaa,menangis ~ tewas lah tu kan hahaha,siapa yang pergi ngan boyfriend tu confirm baju kau basah bro hahaha,,aku? alaa,awek aku jauh doh :( plus ada yang dah tengok pun nak tengok lagi sekali,,

kay,skip bab filem ombak laut ni.

hari tu my girlfie ada beli dua novel,aku ingatkan dia nak beli 1 je,rupa rupanya dia bawa balik 2 novel :O tak tahu nak pilih yag mana satu katanya haha,,

tajuk novel tu - Bila Cinta nd 5tahun 5bulan num fav aku tuuuu

ada satu hari tu aku saja lah suruh dia tulis nama aku kat satu novel tu,lastly dia tulis jugak,,nak tengok ke? nak tengok scroll bawah,tak nak jangan cakap banyak kay hahahaha,, simple je pun tapi aku tetap suka :)

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scroll lagi ! weeeeeeee hahaha

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tulisan budak yang dah lama tak menulis,dah habis SPM lah katakan :D

Aishiteru,Norsinah :)

Life is full of challenges ..

MTV "Sedetik Lebih" - Anuar Zain (1:49 Min)

Siapa aku ?

Aku still baru lagi as blogger so aku tak berapa nak expert lagi bab nak edit sana sini,biar blog aku tak 'handsome' asalkan story biar gempak okay hahaha okay skip bab merapu,,

hari aku nak cerita sikit pasal diri aku,elehhh macam lah korang dah kenal aku,tipuu laaaah --'

kalau kau awek aku,baru aku percaya sebab awek aku je yang betul betul kenal aku hoho,,

Kita mulakan dengan nama aku dulu,My name is Muhammad Adam bin Mohd Nazren #sedaptaknamaaku. Umur 16 tahun der,muda lagi nd makcik mana yang nak pinangkan aku untuk anak anak dara tu,meh cepat sementara aku masih teruna hahahaha LOL.

Aku terdiri daripada 5 oarang adik beradik nd aku anak sulung #abangbesar haha. Qirana,Farah,Aryill nd laaaaast Baby Risa ;)

Parents yang tolong lahirkan kami kat dunia ni ialah Puan Azni nd Encik Mohd Nazren,ThankYou mama + papa. xxx

Aku stay kat Taman Mutiara Gombak,nak datang? Sila sila lah ye,rumah bersepah,kalau korang datang,korang kena kemaskan semuaaaaaaaaa barang barang dalam rumah ni so tak payah lah datang hahahaha, tak tak,datang jelah,nanti mama aku masakan yang SPECIAL untuk korang :p

Hobi ; aku suka meluangkan masa aku kat rumah sejak aku dah ada girlfie hoho,before that aku suka jugak melepak ngan geng skateboard or fixie bila waktu petang,layan internet,makan?,menyanyi nd tu jelah kot. My ambition is i wanna be a lawyer like my dad hihi,besar betul cita cita aku ni. Nak kerja macam tu mestilah kena belajar bersungguh sungguh kaaaan.Apa lagi eh? ohh ! My dream car is BMW bro. Takpa,sikit tahun lagi aku beli lah satu :D

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Aku dah berpunyaaaaaaaaaaa ;D

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Norsinah bt Abdul Malek :)

unik betul nama dia hahaha,dia yang ngorat aku dulu lalalala. Youknowwhat,aku bertuah gila siaaa dapat DIA,selain dari mama,dia je yang boleh faham apa yang aku nak,apa yang aku suka nd apa yang aku tak suka. She's cuteeee ! nd dia jugak pandai,bijak etc..

haaa,YOU ! kembanglah tu kan hahaha,,but tu lah kenyataannya. ILOVEYOU :)

Aku dapat Risa #namasamadenganadikbongsuaku??nexttimelahakucerita, lepas aku clash ngan Laila,wey aku tau kau tengah baca,nak kembang jugak lah tu :p hubungan tak berpanjangan lah kata kan. Lastly,kau couple ngan sepupu aku aishhh.

Aku sorang yang happy-go-lucky,nakal,suka kacau adik-adik termasuk mama hee,comel #girlfieakuyangcakap,sensitif,panas baran SIKIT,garang dengan adik-adik,peramah,ada peminat hahaha,orang selalu dengki dengan aku,suka tolong orang,suka berkawan,degil,manja-manja dengan awek aku pun best :p,tidur,solat kadang kadang tinggal jugak.Astaghfirullahalazim :\,kalau ada problem aku suka share dengan wifey aku,malam malam aku tidur pakai boxer je nd tak pakai baju.aku tau sexy,pernah rasa down dengan awek sendiri,tak bijak sangat nd tak stupid sangat,suka warna biru/aqua/putih/hitam,perfume yang aku ada SGmen ice nd aku selalu wangi tau,ada bela kucing 3 ekor, dan lain lain.

sampai sini je lah kay,nak p makan duluuuuuuu,salam.

Kau dah kenapa

mula-mula kau misscall aku,then bila aku pickup kau pulak off asal ?

malam tadi takda angin takda ribut,kau text aku kata kau guna num baru --'

apa motif kau? kau ingat aku nak sangat contact kau eh 'sayang'? tolong ah weh,sikit pun gua tak ingin lah,,

kau ada hantar spy intip aku eh ?

T A K B O L E H B L A H !

I'm a new beginner :D