Alhamdulillah, I'm happy to finally able to meet Ramadhan again this year, Allah blessed me :')
But this time I've to say that I'm happy nd also sad at the same time. My dearest father passed away on 28th Mac 2013 nd this Ramadhan would be the 1st Ramadhan without him. Usually he wake me up for sahur. Usually he was sitting in front of me on the dining table having our sahur together. Usually we will pray together. I miss to hear his voice. Laugh at me, mad at me, having discussion over matters. Can you feel what I feel right now?
Now, he is with Him, he is in a better place now.
I miss when he called me 'Abang'. Forgive me if I couldn't hold my tears. Forgive me if I haven't been able to make you happy, pa. Forgive me if I can't be a good son for you. But I promise you, pa. I'll take a good care of mama nd my siblings. I won't cry in front of them. I won't.
Even you're no longer here in physical being but I know you'll always be around. I know you're here with me, in my heart. Alhamdulillah, I've a chance to have a father like him nd thank you dad for being a awesome dad for me.
Well, Syawal is coming soon nd tomorrow I will go back to Gombak for Eid. This year always brings a lot of memories. Soon, I will celebrate Eid for the first time without my dad. At this time, my state of mind is not in the world map. Ahaa. I don't know maaaan, it's so hard to tell. I wrote a letter to my late father when I missed him too much. Moving on doesn't mean I forget him right? I'm moving forward bringing him along in my heart.
Al-fatihah...
